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released May 5, 2014

Written and produced by Amateur Chemist
Artwork by NanoMortis

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Track Name: Bigger
I will be bigger. I'm not ashamed.
I will be bigger. I'm not ashamed.

They push me over and over and over and over and over now
Over and over and over and over and over now
Over and over and over and over and over now
Over and over and over and over and over

Back down to be told
I can have everything that's been laid out in their plan
But what is mine?
Can I decide?

Back down and behold
You're not with me
You're doubting me and everything
I've worked so hard to achieve
I've worked so hard

Back down no
I won't back down no
Back down no
I won't back down

And if they want to see me smiling
Just let me be
And if they think that they're just helping
Then they will see

And what is right for you, I say
May not be right for me
And what I've been writing about
It's all I've got

And everything you once had told me
All proved to be a fantasy to keep me in line, steady
On a path you had created
I won't have that

....simply lost himself
Track Name: Glass
I wait until
I wait
The door shuts close
I wait

I see her through
The glass upon the door
Her fingers move
I wait

If I could erase this then I would start again
replacing the words I say
If my will could change this, making me the faceless
I'd click undo on that day

She sings her song
Truthfully she sings
To this I'm numb
I scream

A taunting word
Her weight
I feel so sore
Mistake

Put together the pieces
fix everything

Sometimes I make mistakes and I don't know if it's right
Sometimes I make mistakes and I don't know if it's right

And what was said behind the glass
I did not intend for it to pass
And your reaction was the thing
That shattered broken me

And everyday I see your body walk the streets
Gathered piece by piece and pleading out to me
But that was my mistake and with it I will take
My shame behind the glass
Track Name: Damira
True. Untrue. Does it mean that much to me?
Those words in desperation
It would not come as a surprise
To me if we lost everything

It's too much too much, no
The anniversary
You're not supposed to
Be a part of me

Ephemeral disposition
Squalid and so fickle is your love
So don't plant that on me
I want what it used to be
Still I'm here debating

What's your thoughts when it comes to loyalty?
And trust. Let's ponder terribly
You'd leave me drowning in the sea
I'd leave you bleeding on the floor

Ephemeral disposition
Squalid and so fickle is your love
So don't plant that on me
I want what it used to be
Still I'm here debating

Desperation in me
Significant to me

And in the youngest days desperately we cling to
This side of anyone who we happen to see
And in the oldest days will we stop to cling to
That which we do not need?

Salacious she'll stay
Salacious not me
Track Name: In Shades of Grey
Time is fading in and out now
I'm pulling at my eyes now
Disrepair while I stare
Here

My head is not quite there
It feels like mal de mer
My head is not quite there
And what's the point right here?

My abhorrent expression
And slow degeneration
Paint my face in shades of grey
Wait

Show my mind unto the chosen
Though in time it will be broken
I feel peeled back
To the color of red

Yeah I'll show this
I'm open wide
Yeah I'll show this
I'm open wide

I don't know this
I don't know this
I said that I don't know this
You know that I don't know this
Track Name: Bed
He left and he rests forever
Life can't be pieced back together

And what I left there: Heart
All my love

It's hard for me to lie down
'Cuz I've been too afraid
I'd fall asleep in your grave
Now

It's alright that I sit here alone
It's alright, oh that you had to go

I woke and to my surprise
Birth and death can coincide
But bodies I have not seen
Faint claims that they're underneath


Recall recall the faces now
Recall just where you placed it
Recall recall the faces now

Recall recall the faces now
And don't mistake it for someone else
The things you keep in memory

It's alright that you're gone
I'm alright without anyone
To catch me when I fall
And forever I am strong
'Cause you still lie beside me when I wake at night
And I can feel you there as I say my prayers, always


...simply lost himself
Track Name: A Mixed Episode
Staring at myself in the wall I find
Staring at myself I find
If I stare and think about my own dark design
I will surely lose my mind

Muscle build and muscle break
I don't know how much I can take of this then I'm
Diving back into myself 'cause this place it feels like hell
and now

Now I'm found
Sitting here I break down
And now I know
This is what I need please

Doubting morals I'll break the world my will
Is to run from the vigil
But if time would cease - time try to stand still
Then time I would rebuild

And I'm trying to
I'm still trying to
I'm still trying for answers

And I'm trying to
I'm still trying to
I'll be trying forever

And that's what we can
And that's what we can
And that's what we can do
And that's what we can
The best that we can
That's the best we can do
Track Name: Aspiration
These notions
Imbue them
Conception
appear
Step out of
Sedation
Face all of
my fears

To be so young
And think so much
and Lose yourself
To something else

I see that he's lost himself to
Simply decorate somewhere on his walls
That picture of me has died

Distortion of mirror image
Picture is not what it used to be
The dream has died alone

Alternate
Dimension
A future
Of me
In his face
Haphazard
What remains
Of me
================================
Release the vice that grips you down
Erase the time you've spent being so down
Or everyday will be just like the next
Would you stay still in time?

Would you stay the same?
Would you stay the same like
Would you stay the same like you
always do?

Don't stay the same
Don't stay the same or
Every day will be just like the next
Don't you stay the same in time
Track Name: From the Attic to the Stairs
The father said
The father said
Why don't you
Why don't you come down here?

And now you know this

This is the part where
This is the part where he goes
The boy he needs to find
A home

Then mother said
You'll end up dead
Why don't you
Why don't you come back here

And then he said
After he left
Please would you
Please would you let me be

And now you know this

Everything I've left
And everything I've done and said
I have one request
Show me how to be human

And now you know this
Track Name: In Pursuit
For so long
We've been climbing up so strong
With no doubt
That we'd reach the top somehow

And if we never
get better and better
We're in this together
Forever and ever

We push forward but you
Cannot stand to let us prove
Let us prove what we can do
Let us prove what we can do

Take a risk
Don't shut this down yet, we insist
Like the lion
We will unendingly persist

And if we never
get better and better
We're in this together
Forever and ever

We push forward but you
Cannot stand to let us prove
Let us prove what we can do
Let us prove what we can do
Like the lion pursues
And the darkness consumes
Let us prove that we can too
Let us prove what we can do


Challenging everything
Til our last breath we're pushing forward
Every day, dismantling
To be in pursuit of something greater
Track Name: Departure
This changes ways
This changes life
This changes ways
This changes life
This changes ways
This changes life
This changes ways
When you went away

I knew not what to do now, alone
I'm guessing it's what happens to you
And 20 years of this that I've been through
Is enough to ease a mind and thoughts of you

This changes ways
This changes life
I wish you'd stay
Wish i was right
And changing fate
With every night
This changes ways
When you went away

And then I reach inside my chest
Where feelings once had laid repressed
Remnants of faltering me
for once accepted
But why'd it take as long as this?

And then the weight behind my eyes
Recedes, succumbing to the mind
With each departure an arrival thus begins

My heart in my hands