Zealous

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Inspired by conspiracy theories and Melissa DeLeon

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released September 2, 2012

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Track Name: Holding Hands in the Snow Outside the Cinema
Drenched in love and bliss at night
With your hand in mine
Emotion I'll find again
Just like holding hands
I'll be a part again, just like holding hands
Track Name: Jen's Song
It's quite bizzare
Now that I think about it
You could have more
Get all that you deserve and

Through the fun
You say I'm too much
I am much too much

If it's the last thing I do
I'll find a way to pursue
The things that can't be defined
You know you could join me too

We're going far
Now that we know it's worth it
Still so bizarre
And we're so far from perfect

Through the fun
You say I'm too much
I am much too much

If it's the last thing I do
I'll see this all the way through
Because I promised I would
And I'll be sure that
I'm always keeping my word

And I am glad that we began
And none of this is just pretend
So what is your interpretation
of my rendition of an emotion?

We're not to waste it
Like Mickey did
And I'll admit/We'll make it perfect

In all this we just might lose our heads
For emotion might be dangerous
Promise that you'll hold my hand
And for you I will do the same
Track Name: Simplicity
And to your face I'd like to say
That on this day I feel okay
Because I woke and saw your face
And though it's the same as yesterday
I couldn't live without it
I couldn't live without you

And this simplicity
What is this feeling
That has come over me
I send a letter
It sends a reply back
No time for questions
This is all that we have

What do you know
Oh love it grows
I feel it so
Our Love it grows

And if the days were all the same
I think that I'd still be amazed
Because your face would stay the same
And i could see it everyday
I couldn't live without it
I couldn't live without you

And if there's just one thing to say
I'd speak the words that call your name
And I would be with you always
I promise that we'll never change
I couldn't live without it
I couldn't live without you

And this simplicity
What is this feeling
That has come over me
I send a letter
It sends a reply back
No time for questions
this is all that we have

What do you know
Oh love it grows
I feel it so
Our love it grows
And fading time
It just has to rhyme
To keep the flow
Our love it grows

Things you just can't keep inside
Or be denied so I'll devise
An explanation for it all
While still enthralled
Track Name: A Thought in Fiction
And when I dwell on this
Your love it must exist
I know this
I know this

But though we're just some kids
I'd gladly take this chance
I feel it
I feel this

And all the threads we've sewn
They're only ours to own
We'll keep them in our home
Cuz I know that she loves me so

And then take all my care
And run away with it
Why can't we just be happy?
Why can't we just be happy?

No it's not reverie
These things are as they seem (it's not a dream)
Yours is a life they couldn't take
Cuz my embrace will keep you

She loves me, she loves me
Well at least that's the way it seems
She loves me, she loves me
This bond cannot be broken at the seams
Track Name: Sadder Than I've Ever Been Before
It's not alright
This inner strife
And this won't take too long
And this is my pity song

You'd buy me lunch
But I wasn't fun
At least not according to you
And I am not magnificent

Do I make you upset?
Do I make you wish you were somewhere else?
Do I make you upset?
Well in time I will

And with all you've said
I might lose my head
And sink into anguish
Despair in all of this

You'd buy me lunch
But I wasn't fun
At least not according to you
And all this love
What had it become?

Do I make you upset?
Do I make you wish you were somewhere else?
Do I make you upset?
Well by now I do

I'm sadder than I've ever been before
I'm sadder than I've ever been before
But still we're no closer to a cure
And all the things I thought I knew for sure

I'm sadder than I've ever been before (you know I'm sad)
I'm sadder than I've ever been before (you know I'm sad)
And while you pick the pieces off the floor (of all I am)
I'm sadder than I've ever been before (you know I'm sad)
Track Name: I Lied, I'm an Alcoholic
I think I think too much
And in thought I do get lost
But I'm sure to kill myself off
But first one thing must be done, now

I'll use these thoughts as a weapon
Erasing remnants of your existence
I'll light up every airport
using every ounce of liquor
you intend to pour

Yes I am like this all the time
And I cannot be intimate when I'm having thoughts like this I can't get rid

So please don't make this harder
Than it has
To be your screams
Are safe with me
And hopefully
It won't hurt too
Much for you my precious sweet
Dream
That burns so beautifully//To kill this fantasy

This life I have dreamt up
In which I am not gaunt
A life taken, yours is so short
Delusions move back and forth, now

You live your life like a vector
Infecting everything that you feed off
Into my mind an enigma
Confirmation of a chimera
But I'm not so sure


Only in your death can I resume my life
Only in your death
Only when your dead
Track Name: Try So Hard
If I said you were my style
Would you give me a chance?
One chance?

And now my mind's decisive and I feel lucid
in this waking dream and I'm not falling back a asleep

Just to prove to you
I'm worth it
But you've already gone and left

And so I'm asking "what?"
What does a man have to do?
What does a man have to do
to get to you?
And after all I've tried to be
I have to accept you won't be a part of me

You would smile and say "hello".
So I then took the bait. Okay.
But now you have gone astray
You won't be coming back to me

I try so hard

Not everything works out
Not everything works out, and I know
I will scream it aloud
When my heart breaks down

And this, just let this commence
Cuz this is where it ends

And now I wonder why
I try so hard
And now I wonder why
I try so hard

Thinking back on all the things you said
You know that it meant everything to me
Thinking back on all the things you said
Now you're not there

Not everything works out but this
I know without a doubt
It will, oh it will